Hello everyone,

Yeah I know I've been really MIA for the longest. I still read up on some entries but haven't really been letting everyone in on my life. I would say my life is ok but others swear that my life is a drama. LOL But I guess who's life isn't at one point at another. Well let's see. Lately I've been working and taking classes. Yes I'm taking summer classes people :-\. I'm also waiting to hear from this internship. It's located in Union City and would absolutely love it if I could get this internship. It's a great opportunity and on top of that it's paid. I would be doing something to help the hispanic community. HOW COOL IS THAT! Let me see what else? I am currently still single and have been since almost a year. I'm sure some people find that hard to believe but I am. It's the truth I swear. I've become a lot pickier and also it's hard to find guys now a days, well good guys that is. I'm honestly getting tired of looking but I know one day at one point or another I'll find the right guy for me. Well unfortunately I have to go so that's the update for now. TTYL hopefully.

Jewls

WOW it's been a long time since I've been on here. Almost a full year. LTA life has definitely kept me busy. I just wanted to say hey to everyone and hopefully everyone finds themselves well.

Much love,

Jewls

BY THE WAY I"M FINALLY 21!!!!!!!!!

April 5, 2004

11:14AM

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!   That's right I made it through and can now call myself a Lambda Lady. I really still am in disbelief. To think I now have so many sisters to look to for support and have them come to me for support as well. It was tough and something I never pictured myself doing but as people have told me that sometimes the best things in life are worth fighting for and going through a lot to achieve it. I really don't know what else to say. I guess just that I love all the ladies that have pushed me to my limits and have seen me at my worst. I really have a new found respect for all of you. Well I have class soon but yeah I just wanted to let everyone know that it's great to back and especially great to back a new sister of Lambda Theta Alpha Latin Sorority, Incorporated.

Faith, Love & Hope                      J-Crew 4ever                11:28 AM

9:30PM

Well had a lil misinterpretation with a Xanga site but due to it I got to take a trip down memory lane because of it.  Oh how I wish everyone to be happy and maybe even nicer (in some cases). I'm really hoping that this one close friend of mine text messages me back or something cause I don't like seeing or hearing or reading about my friends being down. And to be honest I feel bad cause this person texted me on Valentine's Day and I completely forgot to text them back cause I had community service and a treasure hunt that distracted me for the whole day. But these are excuses and I see that cause I could have called the next day or what not. So basically I wanna tell this person that I'm a loser and that I'm gonna miss them when I won't be able to talk to them for a while since I will be busy pledging and what not. I will try to write in my Xanga on friday since I will have taken off some things from my plate by then. That entry will be cool cause I will write about how my Valentine's Day went. It was definitely one of the greatest moments in my life.

Jewls ---> Faith, Love & Hope                                      J-Crew 4ever 10:03PM

2:00AM

Yup I am writing at exactly 2am in the morning go figure. You would think that since I'm home I would sleep at this time. Well apparently I still don't. I will eventually I know I will. Well let's see. I just got done looking at Lady's pic from the bowling night that Rosa had planned. I'm a bit depressed now. Well for starters I'm the one that usually brings the group together but well hey I figured that's cool cause I can still have my night too. Unfortunately this year that won't be happening  This really sucks cause I love seeing everyone again, but then again I think that the bowling is better cause everyone gets a chance to talk and catch up instead of sit around and "try" to watch a movie. But then again watchin a movie at my house is a lot cheaper than going bowling but whatever. I do know that I am bitter cause I didn't have a ride to get home earlier and so didn't get to chill with my friends. I guess in a bit of a way it's my own fault cause I stayed to spend some time with Terrence. ok now I know what some of you may think... "Don't you see him everyday while you are at school?" Well, I do but this past week has been nothing but exams and stress and disappointments that well to just relax with my sweetie was much needed. Also he lives in Newark and I'm leaving to Ecuador so I figured it would be tough to see him, which it is. But getting back to the bowling thing. I'm glad everyone had fun but I'm bitter cause I wasn't there having fun with them. Also when I got there I really felt like an outsider. There were few exceptions when it came to that feeling. Obviously, those that took the time to stay and talk to me after bowling. Lady and James I love you guys a lot and you don't know how much it meant to me to have you guys stay afterwards to catch up with me for a few, especially considering the fact that you guys came from long trips that same day. It just really sucks how I honestly would do anything for anyone who asked me to especially those that are close to me but yet I really felt like it was like, "Hey Jewls is here, oh gotta go." I dont' know. I mean I know that they probably didn't mean that way but that is really how I felt. Well I can't complain cause at least today was a good day. Terrence came down from Newark to visit me . He came with his friends, T (Terrence Mitchel) hand T-berry (nick name for a name that I can't pronounce). He got to meet my dad and my doggie. He was very polite of course, it was cute the 2 most serious yet fun guys in my life right now head to head. LOL But yeah from house we went ice skating in Woodbridge. It was cool. I wish his friends would have ice skated too but they wanted to be punks (nah they cool, but had their excuses). So anyway that was Terrence's first time ice skating. He's so cute. A lil too serious at first about it but he lightened up once he got the hang of it. After ice skating all four of us went bowling. That was fun cause I beat them all the first game. Unfortunately the second game I pretty much game in third and Terrence was whipping our asses.  Anyway that we never finished that game cause our time was up so who knows his good luck could have ran out and I could have won It was cool though. Then after bowling we went to the mall cause Terrence wanted to buy something for his dad. So we went to Woodbridge Center and well first we went to Galyans. He got to meet Oppie, which was cool cause I like it when my friends know the person that has kept me sane during this crazy and rough semester and also whom I have grown to care about. We ran into some other people like, Delia, Jady, Delphine, Monica, Lady and Brian. So they all now have a face and name to put with the guy that I am with. I felt a little bad cause it seemed like his friends were ready to go and well obviously they couldn't cause Terrence wasn't ready to go. I know they had fun overall but I still felt a bit bad. Well, I'm going to bed cause I'm tired and well I'm gonna be stopping by my HS tomorrow and also hopefully going to see "Honey" with my honey, my bro and Maria at Jersey Gardens. Oh and I also have to get stuff together to pack. Oh this is going to be a fun next couple of days. Well to bed I go.

Jewls---> Faith, Love & Hope        J-Crew 4ever          2:32AM